Feeling Fat Days
Yesterday was "one of those days." Nothing particularly bad happened. In fact, it was a pretty ordinary Monday. Still, I woke up in the morning feeling pretty down on myself. I call it my feeling fat days.
I think it started when I was looking through some pictures on my computer. In spite of the fact that I have lost more than 35 pounds in the past year and a half, those pictures said just one thing to me: I'm still fat. I had been feeling pretty good about myself until that moment when I remembered I still have a long way to go.
Fat or thin, I think we all have those days when we don't feel too good about ourselves. What do you do? It would be so easy to give in and wallow in self pity. I usually talk myself out of exercising and into a lot of no-healthy but oh-so-satisfying foods.
Yesterday I tried a different approach more in keeping with the lifestyle changes I've worked so hard to make. I went to the gym, ate healthy foods when I was hungry, didn't over-stuff myself, and purposely avoided sweets. Most of all, I just kept telling myself that the feeling would pass, which it did. I woke up this morning feeling like myself again.
So how do you handle your own feeling fat days?
If you didn't get a chance to read it, my latest Let's Get Real column ran on Sunday. To read, just click here.
I have certain things that I do that help me from being down on myself.
I never look in a mirror that shows more than my face, and that is only so I can shave. I try hard not to stand on a weight scale. I don't look at pictures of myself either from the past, or the present. I try not to associate with people who are judging me on account of my size. I try to remember that I didn't get this way overnight. you know, if it took me 36 years to get this way, it is gonna take a long time to return. There are no easy fixes. Keep pushing forward. I want to have friends who love me for me, and not for any other reason. Only in America is small considered desirable. There are billions of people in the world who wish they had enough to eat to be my size. Given the choice... I'd rather be happy and large, than thin and miserable. The ideal would be to be thin and happy. I have a difficult time achieving that goal. Lastly, Let go and let God. I think that is the most important one.
So, I hope some of this helps.